well...where should i start from?

hi all...i don't know if you mind reading this to the end or not...
recently i've suffered alot...the worst thing that happened to me was felling in love! heh i've said it a long time ago but that time wasn't sirous . i forgot about him in 2 days!
BUT this time...i'm on the verge of dying...really...my friends all warned me but i didn't listen to them...i feel like a stupid thing who wants to make trouble for her self...
i feel bad...i need help...but i can't talk to anyone...its just you guys...JUST YOU...
and i feel terrible about the exams...i still haven't recieved my report card but i feel so bad
i'm not the person who i used to be...i'm changed...in a really bad way...i don't care about anything like i did in the past...
what the hell should i do?...why me?why should i suffer this things in my life?why in this age?god says that he loves all human beings the same...he says he hears us all...
but now i guess he has forgot about me...
..
.....
thank you so much for reading this to the end...I LOVE YOU ALL
bye